My Own BlOg

2009-10-28T08:14:00.001-07:00

have you been stabbed in the heart so badly that there is no way of reversing the demage done to it? life is just this way it seems.

2009-09-07T10:43:00.001-07:00

honestly i duno what 2 blog so i shall blog about some cheats for facebooks games and how to do it.
Country Story Leveling Cheats Works from lvl 1 - 17. after that u will hit error.
Tools you need :
1) Cheat Engine 5.5
2) Firefox // Internet Explorer
3) FlashPlayer 9.0
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Step 1) Make sure you do something that will gain your exp.
Step 2) Open Cheat Engine 5.5 and choose as process: FireFox.exe or Iexplorer
Step 3) Tick HEX, Choose 8 bytes, (Also Scan Read Only Memory)
Step 4) Scan FC2444C7C1580FF2
Step 5) Right click the address only with a "4" Behind
Step 6) Right click and Disassemble
Step 7) Right click the top results and change register at this location.
Step 8) Tick EBX and enter "9FF"

Country Story Free Dog Cheat
Tools you need :
1) Cheat Engine 5.5
2) Firefox // Internet Explorer
3) FlashPlayer 9.0 or 10.0
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Step 1) Make sure you are level 8.
Step 2) Open Cheat Engine 5.5 and choose as process: FireFox.exe or Iexplorer
Step 3) Tick HEX, Choose 8 bytes, (Also Scan Read Only Memory)
Step 4) Scan 4E8B10438B104389
Step 5) Right click and Disassemble
Step 6) On the first like right click "Mov [ebx+10], eax and click "Change register at this location"
Step 7) Tick EAX and enter "f" at the value.
Step 8) Go back to country story and click on quest and you will probably see this!

I shall also add in the links to each individual item should you have some missing items such as where to download cheat engine etc..

Flash Player 9 Stand Alone here

Cheat Engine 5.5

if you have any comments on what other games u like i can do too. =) post a shoutout!

2009-08-22T22:22:00.000-07:00

today is flags for peace. i was working at vivo city at the wee hours of 10am in the morning to put up flags of peace from children of different walks of life. so it was a really hot day and dam i could tell u after the event i was burn till super black le. the flags of peace which comprises of some countries only china, singapore, usa, australia, malaysia and some others there were a total of 3000 flags and i had only 10 manpower. these guys were from breakthru i heard a rehab for ppl who like went to jail and stuffs so they volunteered to come down and help out for our event. thank you so much guys.. so yea was a really hot day and i shall upload photos to let u see who its like.

2009-08-19T01:22:00.000-07:00

i really dunno you anymore.
is it better we stay as friends?
i really been trying 2 salvage the situation
i knw its impossible 2 ask anything from u since i hurt u last time.
just talked to you today. try to find a topic to talk to you but seems like ur so angry with me. i know i sometimes ask stupid questions but still i really try to be concerned. i'm nt so smart as u.
i try to give u ur freedom ur space ur friends anything you want.
i try to call u less to talk 2 u so u wun feel like i keep stalking you or finding out what you do or what. i just being concern.
maybe i shold not rush things between us.
maybe i should just let it be how the way it is..
rushing will only make u angry and pissed.

2009-08-12T02:22:00.001-07:00

back from a very long time of not blogging! sry guys!! lots of things will be added shortly

2009-07-18T18:22:00.000-07:00

hihihihi........ today is saturday. finally week end come le. was at home doing my projects and work. and was playing some online games. been very tired lately... so much work to do and alot of work to be done. plenty of coding to do too. sian. all coding. but nvm i later meeting yan zhu in the afternoon at jurong point go walk walk and movie. so we both went walk walk at jurong point and went to eat first hungry... whole day haven eat anything so we went to eat at thai express and we went to play some arcade and watch ice age.

ice age is a really funny and cute show. meant for those who just want to laugh and just relax after a tiring day of work or school. its a really funny show. must go watch! so after that yanzhu went to meet her friends and i went back home to cont do my work and stuff. okok shall blog more later

2009-07-16T23:20:00.000-07:00

this week has been a tiring one for me cause been going out all and meetin up wit friends too. so yea and lots of school work and all projects started le. so have 2 keep doing le.
just finish my resume and bsit report now going for overnight prayer. tomorrow submission of both!

2009-07-12T08:07:00.001-07:00

OH NO! i just realise i left my handphone charger in school. omg omg omg!. pray that my charger will still be there tml morning. gotta go early to school to see if dun have die le cause my phone no batt. who has sony erricson charger borrow me? anyway..today went out with nigel.

i was sharing with him about a christian radio station and he was like lol? sg got christian music station? of course i say no la is overseas cause sg not big too host a christian music station which i truly pray it will happen so that i can give in alot of encouragement words to all others. felt really bless to come across this radio station its called spirit 105.3 i will put the link here to the site Click here the channel not only host music but it has alot of calls in which ppl gives in testimonies and hearing it bring me joy and feel so happy.

its like how great is my walk with god now. been listening to the station the whole day. hmm felt so refresh even when school has so much school work and stuffs. ok gotta sleep early tml have 2 wake up to go school.

2009-07-09T09:39:00.000-07:00

my life has never been so fulfilled
life is just so wonderful
it takes you on a round about journey
and you do not know where the end of the road will lead
but you know one thing is for sure
god is always with u

have been going for overnight prayer meeting with my parents at house of prayer.
thou i am not strong in my prayer but through every night of prayer sessions of like 4-5 hours i feel that i'm learning to be more faithful to god's word. been slowly stepping back to god and yes i feel his presence in me again. although i am weary and tired but my mind is very alive even thou my body feel weak. i can pray and pray and just cont praying. never in my life i have prayed for so long and so many consecutive days. feel so overflowed and happy!

tml is friday and have 2 different projects to show cmsk and mbdp and guess what all i have finished them le. i manage to finish even thou i never sleep for the past few days.shall be sleeping now le. tomorrow will be a better day!

2009-07-07T19:20:00.000-07:00

here are the some of the pictures which we took at IMM swensen. was having a gathering on monday. we were having dinner and also a get together kind of time together its been like 2 or 3 years since we all saw each other and its really great most of us could make it at such a short notice. it was really an memorable time. we were talking about the times we spent during ite days and also all the things we nickname our lecturer such as kukubird and stuffs. and how they push us to study and all.

2009-07-04T22:01:00.001-07:00

ohaiyo. today morning gotten up fresh and happy. why you must be wondering cause i did not have my mum waking me up to go school so yea had a good night sleep. was busy the whole weekend doing up my personal website which i'm really happy about. if u guys have no idea u can visit Click Here. i'm really happy its up and although it still has many bugs i shall slowly finish them and get it totally up and running like a full website. been practising my guitar and stuffs and eating less in the effort 2 drop to 70 kg before year 3.1 which is impossible i know but i got no choice. is nafa test where their all those 2.4km run and stuffs and i need 2 get a gold or silver to as to have 2 months less of ns life so yea. will be running on weekends. weekdays wun ba cuz too tired le after school.

2009-07-01T08:29:00.000-07:00

what are your goals in life? do you have one? or still thinking of one right now? its good to have goals in life. you can have something to aim for. For me i want to graduate poly with a diploma with good grades and after that go to serve my country for 1 year 10 months provided i get gold or silver for nafpha which i am losing weight through a diet now. after National service i want to study more and be more knowledgable and also serve in church in maybe worship ministry and play guitar or drums for church. just feel so happy when i sing and play instruments it bring me just joy and feel so relax. and last but not least i also aim to cheer at least 1 person who i know around me every day.

For my diet now, every day eat oats for breakfast brown rice for dinner omg. its filling but its really hard to eat down. hope to get used to it. feeling really tired in school and have not been sleeping well this few days. i shall rest for tonight. good night all!

2009-06-30T07:54:00.002-07:00

today went to sch as usual and had lunch at pasta mania with guo long,hui fung,jacey,yun ni,lusia,bing. i had agio olio which is just plain paste cooked in olive oil and garlic and chilli. really very nice den i went 2 catch transformers as i really wanted 2 watch it. watch it alone thou cause most of my classmates either watch it or not interested. so yea. than my outside friends either working or not free cause so late minute so i went to watch alone. so i sat at seat K-14. it was the last row from the back and the last seat too. i was like omg this is the second time i watch a movie alone cause usually i would have alot of ppl calling me out or like go out and watch together as a group would be real fun. so yea was watching it. the whole show was like wow. its intense would put u back in ur seats as during the whole show it was all the way fighting and romance all. well i felt the directors also focus on 1 actor and thats the lead female actress. there's one scene which she was on the bike wearing hot pants. i bet all guys must be looking at her butt la. cause the camera was like so ovbious focusing on that part of her and her figure all too. so the whole show was really interesting but one part i couldn't get it was there was this part of the show which they use a small fragment of the cube to revive the megatrons leader and y didnt they use it to revive optimus prime? weird eh? cause if i not wrong the cube gives intenst energy and stuff so y didnt it give optimus prime back life? thats 1 part i didnt understand haas. and also one more thing i hope transformer 3 would have megatron dead. cause if his still alive the show would be meaningless it would just cont and continue all the way and it would be boring so i hope megatron would die and maybe a new leader or something?

2009-06-29T07:01:00.000-07:00

yawnz.. today i felt sleepy maybe cuz sleep late last night. gonna get used 2 school life back again. so today woke up at 8am and realise late for sch so what 2 do? take cab down of course. haas. so anyway met my new lecturers for new subjects such as MDBP and BSIT which are david and jason. i feel their ok teachers la. so yea went back sch all. and having lessons as usual. than was thinking i have so many things i have not done so many things i want to accomplish so many things i need to do. so yes i must make full time of my life and stop wasting time and just do all the things that i want to do.

i just feel very blessed to have alot of close friends who actually care for me and all and cheer me up when i broke with my ex even thou its quite a while. but yes i still think about her. but now i'm trying to think lesser and less le. cause occupying myself with many many things no time to think. just keep doing things and at the end of the day i will jus go back and have a good rest for the next day it will be a better day! haa so after school met cindy and jenna for dinner as didnt meet them for like super duper long. so we went to eat fish and co and chat alot of funny and lame things that happen during ite. such as like how jenna got chased by kenneth into a relationship really funny nxt time i tell u all what happen. really cute. and roberts how he chase dila for a relationship and stuffs and all. but its really cute la. all the happy memories really make me feel so xing fu to have such close and good friends that support me thru all e way.

2009-06-28T03:09:00.001-07:00

hi all below is a story i wanna share with u all!
its called When you divorce me, carry me out in your arms

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped
in
front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of
the
car in my arms. So I carried her into our home.

She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.

This was the scene of ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid,
I
went into business and tried to make more money.

When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us
seemed
to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and
got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding
school.

Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was
more
likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life.

It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from
behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This
was the apartment I bought for her.

Dew said, You are the kind of man who best draws girls eyeballs. Her
words
suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wife said, Men
like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls. Thinking of
this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I
couldn t help doing so.

I moved Dew s hands aside and said, You go to select some furniture,
O.K.?
I've got something to do in the company.Obviously she was unhappy,
because
I had promised her to go and see with her. At the moment, the idea of
divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something
impossible to me.

However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter
how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly,
she
was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was
sitting
in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon.Then we watched TV
together.
Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew s body. This was
the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slight joking way, suppose we divorce, what
will
you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently
she
believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn t
imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the
staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide
something
while talking with her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently
smiled
at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.

Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live
together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate anymore.

When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. Ive got something
to tell you, I said.

She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.
Suddenly I didn t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know
what
I was thinking. I want to divorce. I raised a serious topic calmly.

She didn t seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me
softly, why? . I m serious. I avoided her question. This so-called
answer
turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you
are
not a man! .

At that night, we didn t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she
wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly
give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated
that
she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She
glanced
at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman
who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day.
But
I could not take back what I had said.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected
to
see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release.The idea of divorce
which
had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her
writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast.

When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was
asleep
again.
She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn t want anything from
me,but
I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the
month s time we must live as normal life as possible. Her reason was
simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she
didn
t want him to see our marriage was broken.

She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do
you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?
This
question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I
nodded
and said, I remember . You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I
have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day
when
we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out
from
the bedroom to the door every morning.

I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished
to end her marriage with a romantic form.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and
thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face
the
result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me
feel
uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn t had any body contact since my divorce intention was
explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when
I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son
clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought
me
a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door,
I
walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said
softly, Let us start from today, dont tell our son. I nodded, feeling
somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for
bus,
I drove to office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily.She leaned on my
chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse.
I
realized that I hadn t looked at this intimate woman carefully for a
long
time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles
on
her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, The outside garden is being
demolished. Be careful when you pass there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were
still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The
visualization of Dew became vaguer.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as,
where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking,
etc.I
nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger.

I didn t tell Dew about this.

I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me
stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now.

She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried
quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, All my
dresses have grown fatter. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was
because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because
I
was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart.
Again,
I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her
head.

Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said.
To
him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential
part
of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly.
I
turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last
minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the
sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and
naturally. I held her body tightly,
as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made
me
sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step.
Our
son had gone to school. She said, Actually I hope you will hold me in
your
arms until we are old.

I held her tightly and said, Both you and I didn t notice that our life
was
lack of such intimacy.

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid
any
delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened
the
door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won t divorce. I m serious.

She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no
fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can
only say sorry to you, I won t divorce. My marriage life was boring
probably because she and I didn t value the details of life, not because
we
didn t love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried
her
into the home, she gave birth to our
child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry
to
you.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed
the door and burst into cry. I walked downstairs and drove to the
office.

When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my
wife
which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me to write the greeting
words
on the card. I smiled and wrote, I ll carry you out every morning until
we
are old.

2009-06-23T03:53:00.000-07:00

hihi all first of all sry for such a long break from blogging. been having lots of happening things in my life. haas and decided to take a long break and just enjoy life. well to list things out i went to play mahjong with my buddies well its for fun den all talk about ns life all dam sian i haven ns. i cant wait to go in ns. want to be fit and finish the 2 years quickly and go to uni to pursue my degree and maybe continue on with masters and doctorate. well ambitious right me? well of course aim high and even u fall also wun fall far from that goal. haas well this week alot of events line up. mon-tuesday meeting up with jy and wed gg out with my classmates. thursday meeting my ite friends and either friday or one day for paintball session with friends saturday gg to church and sunday prawn fishing. haas.

2009-06-08T08:42:00.001-07:00

HOHOHO back again! haas anyway today was a very tiring day for me thou. if you guys dunno. my poly's having term break so every1 is like having holidays.. so well for me i'm having block teaching so yea sch still have not end for us so as usual monday's school as usual just that there's no SWEN haas guess dr foo very happy with his new baby girl called hannah anyway gonna wish him a early father's day too. haas and maybe he forgot about us? haa oops. hmmm today nothing much just keep doing coding all and keep doing till about late den went back and had dinner with bing as she wanted to buy cake for her brother b-dae. oh ya talking about that wish her brother happy birthday too LOl. tis post seems to be so weird, no full stops. no stops and commas just continuous of talking. i'm basically just trying to remmeber whats going through my mind right now so yea. so i went back and on the train there was this very unusual thing. i got up the train at tampiness and while the train was going and i not sure which stop it arrived there was this really slim and sexy young lady in hot shorts and top and she came into the train and of course i notice her cause it was like wow. so the train left and this young lady was sitting opposite me and she suddenly quietly broke down in tears. i didnt saw that cause was listening my music on my ipod nano. and as the train was moving i saw tears slowly falling down her eyes and she tries to cover it by like covering her face and stuff. hmm at that point of time many thoughts came through my mind. could she just lost her job? broke with her bf? got scolded? too many thoughts but i couldnt come to the conclusion but just quietly sit opposite seeing tears fall down her face and she was trying hard to wipe the tears from her eyes and in my heart was like telling me go up to her and give her a tissue. and i was like omg i must be crazy to do that what if later she slap me or wad cause she already moody all? what if i give her tissue den she scold me or wad den i feel embarass in the train? so i waited till like 3 -4 stops i took like my packet of tissue walked infront of her and gave it to her. and surprisingly she didnt scold me or wad. she was like gave me a smile and i felt really glad inside cause at least i see a smile in her face. and i felt good too.so train was going and she got off like at paya lebar i think? and i went back ba. must be thinking why i type so detail right? i duno why maybe want to share with u all that little things we do around us could bring a smile to others even the person maybe feeling low. although she did not say thank you or what i felt happy cause at least it bring about a smile in someone life even when the person is feeling so down. at least me a stranger cares for her? haas. okok i shall end this draggy and long blog post. tomorrow still have lessons. nights!

2009-06-06T07:58:00.000-07:00

Strength and preseverence is all i need to finish this last lap of the race to the end of this sememster! 1+ week left ba. aiming to get both subject get B or A? maybe? hope so i really work really hard so that when i grad and go ns after ns i have more opportunities to pursue the courses i want.

2009-06-05T08:28:00.000-07:00

TIRED!

been feeling really drain out and sleepy this few days. really really tired. datelines and projects submissions very near and ending of sememster soon le. abt 1 half weeks more till end sememster and 2 weeks of break. gonna rush my work all paul u can do it de jiayou!

2009-06-03T08:10:00.000-07:00

been really busy in sch.. will try to update as soon as possible. been studying and doing lots of school work. so any way tomorrow is ewad presentation and swen interview too.. really stress. anyway was listening to a song by hillsongs really make me fill with energy back. the song is HillSongs- Through It All. really nice song. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MDg2Fnr6KRE here it is. anyway reading on cvs and scm now. shall continue tml.

2009-06-01T20:55:00.000-07:00

today was a long day. was in school whole day as usual and had swen lecture too. met jy for a movie at tampiness mall and we watch night at the museum 2. i have to admit its funny but the first movie of night at the museum is more funny. there was this 1 scene where dexter and abel these two monkeys were slapping the guard. very funny haas. so after movie i went back home to finish my RBL learning as we have to compile all by tomorrow. its good to start early so that got more room for improvements. so anyway just finished my RBL part and shall go to sleep its 2 am in the morning now.

2009-05-31T07:06:00.001-07:00

my parents went to a prayer conference at the expo while i'm at home now alone. so anyway today was a semi-tiring day met my classmates at je library at 11 to do coding and stuffs and went off earlier to meet my mom for dinner. walked around sim lim looking for a external harddisk but nothng interested me a 500gb seagate ext sata hdd cost 160. and when i wanted to buy it. they say their casing is out of stock and propose to me to buy another casing which is 30 dollars of course i say no thx haas and walked around to see more shops but in the end i just went back. didnt want to waste any money.tomorrow school starting. better sleep early. my whole class and me have been rushing all our projects to deadline. we have dr foo's project and mr patrick koh projects all deadlines close to each other with more lab tests,quiz and written test! oh my.. Paul u can do it de! jiayou!!!!

2009-05-30T07:19:00.000-07:00

hihi all readers! i'm back again. today was a long day for me. firstly in the morning i met guo long for my ewad project with him and also searching on our swen projects parts. we met at 11pm at national library and i can tell u, didnt expect saturdays to be so empty. i was hoping that saturday was like a weekend so basically plenty plenty people at the library using free internet and reading books and stuff but to by amaze its like half full and we went so late in the morning almost close to afternoon and we could find seats wow. praise god. so anyway we were doing our projects and i have to admit really thankful got a good partner better than last time my partner who doesnt do anything or seems like he doesnt really care much about his school work and stuffs. maybe he have his reasons and stuffs but i shall give him that reason of doubt so anyway we did till about 3pm+ than we packed our stuff and went for lunch at the near by bugis hawker centre. had chicken curry for lunch while guo long had vegetarian food. the food's great. well to me one of the ways i destress or make myself happy is actually eat thats explains my size haas. but am cutting down SLOWLY....... contradicting myself again. so anyway we went back to the library again to find our swen books and we found them but its under lee kong chiang section which is references so we search the library system again and found that the smilar books are available at other libraries. the only library that has guo long book was like tampiness library so we went all the way back to tampiness and he borrowed the book on refactoring. well gonna say a secret. guo long return a book on roger s pressman and its the book lusia book if i'm not wrong so yea. haas.

2009-05-29T09:28:00.001-07:00

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2009-05-27T18:28:00.000-07:00

yoyo all readers haas.. anyway just reach school the next day. so now in school to blog for yesterday's events. had school as usual. one whole long day again. from 9 to 5 or 6pm if i'm not wrong. got our results back. for swen subject i got B- for 60% of the total grade. really happy cause i feel i really blessed to have my groupmates all so hardworking and work together to achieve same goals. life seems to be taking a turn on me somehow i feel, although i dunno what lies ahead of me, i'm ready to embrace it with confidence! haas. so after school i went so sell my spare iphone away and was at tampiness central there. went to the second hand phone shops to check the prices for the phones from what i heard from my friend iphones firsth and for 3rd generation is like 500+? price dropped drastically due to the high demand and high productivity of the phones. so i was prepared to heard like 200 for my phone offer? and i went to the first shop i showed the person my phone which is a 2nd generation phone from the states which means it is cheaper. the phone shop owner did not know the price of the phone so he called his boss and a few others and he gave me an offer of 250. so i was like okay. tats really really low. so i said thx and i went to try another shop and guess what this uncle was really nice he gave me an offer of 320 for the phone much more than what i expected because its quite impossible to get such a price trade in price for a phone which does not have local warranty and also its an export set. so i was like okay i'll take it. and off i left with 320 extra in my bank haas. and had my dinner at tampiness mall. didnt know what to eat so i went to pasta mania cause was craving for agoilo oilo. so my dinner cost me about 7+ cause i had the set for it which consist of the pasta, soup, garlic bread and drink. after eating a scrumptous meal i happily left on mrt back and went home to study and was chatting with fung,ni,bing,jacey,zb,gl haa all my clique. anyway thats what i can rememebr most of what happen haas.

2009-05-26T07:38:00.000-07:00

oh no.. just came back from school today. really really tired now its 10.38pm. and just sat on the desktop of my computer. really really tired whole day been coding and doing my assignments. anyway it was a really good day ba. didnt feel so stress anymore all. maybe used to it. dr foo will be giving our software engineering subject the marks. duno how did i do for the past 5-6 weeks. anyway been working really hard hope i get e marks i only knw my test paper which he said was suppose 2 make every1 score very well actually made all do badly. for me myself when i was doing the paper got 1 question asked about advantages of a waterfall model, i listed down the disadvantages.. oh no.. what am i doing. i know the questions all but i see wrongly maybe because its question 3 and i was doing question 1 at that time and it was talking about pit falls which is like disadvantages or something like that. so anyway hope i will do well ba. really been studying hard all. and i hope to get good grades all the way. anyway got a good news i have decided to make terms with god and go back to church. its a big step of faith from me as i have not been to church since 4 to 5 years ago and last time was really active. haas so lets see how things go. =) tats all for today shall continue to do my coding for my assignment part 2 of EWAD subject.

2009-05-25T10:43:00.000-07:00

just reach home... came back all and lots of things happen.. hmm shall not talk too much in detail. anyway been doing lots of soul searching and stuff and know what i want in life. haas okok its very late. just finish my database schema for assignment 2.

2009-05-25T01:22:00.000-07:00

ooooooohhhhhhh its monday morning... morningblues to all readers i suppose start of a new day of school, work etc.. had a good weekend? anyway was late going to school as i slept yesterday at about 2am+ so was like not sufficient sleep ba. my mum sleep in my room for the 1st time cause her room hot and my room i on aircon so i had to sleep on the floor and when i woke up today morning with a backache haas but the good thing about it is that my mum prepared for me chicken pie so okay. morning wake up with a bad backache but covered up with the morning pie haas so i was going to school took mrt to tampiness then took the free shuttle bus to school. and it was pat lesson. again coding coding agian. so just do do do now. now its 12+ went to design canteen to have our lunch and i had fish and chips with rice and egg. u must be wondering why i eat so much right? stress ma. eating makes me happ haas. so after that we all went to library to continue with coding till now about 5. still coding some of the girls went back first, only guo long , me , hui fung , yun ni and xue bing left to continue chiong project. okok shall update more later.!

2009-05-24T04:20:00.000-07:00

wooo its sunday le. start of a new week. anyway woke up around 12 today and still doing my ewad assignment finally i finished my parts and sent to my partner guo long so yea trying 2 find pictures all for 2nd part of the product catalogue today didnt go anywhere as got much work to do.. today nothing much to do just chit chatting with classmates on msn and surfing through forums. nothing much to do on a sunday when tomorrow school starts again. haas anyway i'm looking forward to it. cant wait to finish all my projects and aim for A's.!!

2009-05-23T07:53:00.000-07:00

today morning was a really rush one for me. forced myself to wake up early as i was meeting guo long to do ewad as we both are the same group. i woke up like 3 times as i wake up and keep go back 2 sleep haas quickly wash face and have a quick bath and cab down to school. was doing programming all e way.. lots of codes, errors manage to finish most of the DAO's and webpages from scratch again. then suddenly while we were doing lights went out, fans offed. and guess what? its 1pm lol. school closes at 1pm. so we were doing at level 1 with out laptops and coding all. we do till about 3+ and went out to school to eat. had $1.30 plate of chicken rice. not bad right? cheap food and its nice haas. had our lunch and went back to school to do more coding. and we both left about 8 and guo long went back home to eat while i ate at tampiness mall. was at tampiness mall and it was totally pack. was squeezing my way through and searching what to eat, so finally i came to an conclusion phew. after like 20 mins of walking and deciding what to eat. i had teppanyaki and ordered set a which comprises of small portions of fish,scallop,oyster,and beef or chicken or mutton. i wanted to try each and every kind so that next time i come and eat i can recommend what is good haas. so while i was waiting for the chef to cook my portion of food had a simple prayer to god to commit my family to him as seeing my parents quarrel and my sister and me are stress over money issues too and to add on lots of school work. i gotta be strong!!! jiayou paul! haa i love to self motivate myself cause it makes my character stronger i feel. god has been talking to me almost everyday telling me to rest, come back to him but i seem to be avoiding that issue for a very long time. its been like 2-3 years since i went to church. i still remember the reason i backslide from god well it was really stupid i felt that my cg all dun talk to me and stuff cause i went to ite and that silly thoughts of mine made me lost many valuable friends around me who are always there when i need them. well let you guys know what is my cell group name and all. my cell group name was called elohim and we were very active in church and stuff every week we would meet up for cell group meetings,chit chat , have worship together etc. and its like a family i felt. every year we would have this camp with different theme for example shine camp is to be like a light in the word. and i was very active in my church back then. was in missionary ministry and going around helping people overseas and spreading the word of god. and still remmeber we would sleep on mats on the floor and would paint for the kids their school, clean their whole school up and preach the word of god. and when there's children camp i would always be in those childrens camps and be like a big kor kor and play games with them. so many happy memories back then. and they would jump on top of me and ask me to piggy back them. i feel i was like a role model to them they look up to me as someone helpful and every there to hear what they have to say. the kids would tell me what happen in school and what they do etc.. and we would talk till like 10+ till the time lights have to go off and i would have to be forced to rush them back to their dorms during the camp to sleep and they would sneak out in the night and find me to chit chat. haas was really fun during the camps etc.. hmm seems like a long post already shall stop here. will load more info again. anyway as promised will post yesterday's dinner pictures haas of Fish & Co

2009-05-22T08:54:00.000-07:00

came back from school after a long day. was in school till like 7+ den went to dinner with my class girls fung,lusia,yun ni,zabrina,jacey. got off at interchange den we had tis small little discussion T1 or TM? tampiness 1 or tampiness mall den fung was like sure go eat seoul garden den i say 2 her must be jacey right? she got her new card wan 2 go there eat lols! anyway after much discussions we headed to TM and went there we have to make a decision again.. guess what? choosing what food to eat haa, so again we discuss and finally went to fish and co to eat. zabrina ate swordfish,i had seafood platter for one and lusia,yunni,zabrina and fung shared a seafood feast. shall upload u guys with the pics later of the food. when we were ordering there was tis guy, i'm not sure if i can remmeber his name is eric zabrina like interested in him den i was like teasing her saying i help u get number la. was really funny. had a really good dinner chit chatting with my classmates and just enjoying having their company around. after that we said our goodbyes and all went our seperate ways. as for me i went for an haircut and now my hair looks like omg. short short short. sure on monday my classmates will laugh at me haas but i like it its short clean and neat look.no more long or messy or out of bed look no more! shall go back to studies!

2009-05-22T02:24:00.000-07:00

YYYYYEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

know whats the feeling of solving a problem? it feels so good!! haas was having ewad practical labs in class and was stuck at some problem. try try try debug debug and retry and finally you solve it!! haa feel so good. then i realise this is like a lesson in life. never give up trying and dun give up just keep pushing forward. like god never give up on us. so i must give up on myself. i must aim to go to uni and further and further till how far i can go! =)

2009-05-21T17:00:00.000-07:00

back from school.. phew.. felt really relieved that swen presentation was over and dr foo was really nice didnt shoot my group with lots of questions just some minor mistakes here and there. knw he wants us to be efficient in the working world. we appreciate it dr foo!. anyway went home first thing i do was not on computer like i usually do but i immediately rush to bath cause it was such a long day. evening met my sis jeremiah and drive down to fix his auntie computer. powersupply spoil and my friends shop was open so got a new psu at 35 dollar and he wanted 2 treat me dinner but i gave him a lie say oh i gotta rush home to study actually in my heart i wanted to tell him treausre my sister shes really a supportive sister and he better treasure her and love her more. haa i know they will not see this so its ok =) anyway going to sleep now so shall blog again tomorrow

2009-05-03T06:04:00.000-07:00

been stress lately in school. well i never update this blog cause everytime i see the past post will think of lots of unhappy memories but what are memories for? keep us reminded to move on and look forward? doing work and rushing assignments now lots of work to do. been thankful to my swen group mates for working so hard!! celebrated fung b-dae at marina square there. had popeye for dinner and went to sg flyer for 1 round at 10 dollar due to student price and guess who we saw? our classmate bing name on the namelist lols. such a concidence haas anyway school is starting tml.. shall prepare my work to show teacher all tml.

2008-08-02T18:29:00.000-07:00

hooray came juz revamp my blog. lols. thx to annie 4 helping me do layout all. xiexie anyway tis whole week was kinda down n sad lots of feelings n emotions happening. was quarreling with my gf. now on the verge of breaking up. to stay or not to. the questions keeps being asked. but i dun1 to patch again and quarrel n u keep crying. u drop enough tears le. i see u cry till my heart now become cold also le. anyway tis week went to watch mummy returns the tomb of the dragon king and money no enough 2 and dark knight. lol both shows were not bad la. the mummy returns i watched it alone not cuz no frenz or wad but juz wan 2 be alone cuz tat day quarrel till veri badly so i went alone to movie trying 2 cheer myself up but in e end i see all e mummies n all e action den 4got about e quarrel le. den on friday went out with jy and cheer me up lor. den watch 2 show in 1 shot money no enough 2 and the dark knight. we watch frm like 4pm all e way to 9+ if i not wrong cuz dark knight is 2hr 45min and money no enough is 2 hrs long so imagine my pigu super pain. 1 cinema chiong to nxt show LOl. quite fun this whole week. now thinking of idea to do my mask making. no idea how 2 paint it lols.

2007-07-08T00:14:00.000-07:00

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yupyup.. tis is e title.. i juz feel being with her is really happy and stuff but she make mi learn 1 thing nothing is forever.its like i can giv her gifts presents money anything but who knows down e road will she still be with mi? i was talking 2 her on e fone and i realise if shes not the 1 for me y shld i be spending alot of money all tis? cause no1 can realli make u certain tat she wants 2 spend e rest of her life with u. tats y tat doubt isalways in me i duno y i become veri pessimistic. like cuz her ex Heng. is overseas working but i'm here with her. i juz feel if 1 day we quarrel and stuff when we maybe older she has nothing 2 lose. she can still go back 2 him cuz he always working and no need 2 send gifts and money or wad well i will be keep spending and spending and eventually no money left? and when he come back singapore or wad he will be like really loaded den she go back with him? she makes mi have this feeling always tat she does not want 2 end up with mi cuz maybe she feels i m nt financially stable and stuff but i wonder if she realli serious with mi or playing with me? i know i shld nt think like tis but i juz cannot seem 2 think otherwise. i came back frm australia i bought her more den 400 of gifts and clothes etc.. but i think back is it worth it? y not i save the money and use it for my wife? i never know who will my wife be but will it be stupid 2 keep buying things for a girl whom u love deeply and den u nev er know if she will be with u till the end. like she taught mi. she no need 2 care abt e start of middle all she needs is 2 knw who she's gonna end up with. tat 1 stuck mi deeply and made mi realise nothing is forever even married also can divorce i feel so sad and juz cry cuz its like its such a cruel world out there.

2007-04-26T02:58:00.001-07:00

hmmm...ytd juz past 2 mths... hai happy lo... things between up start 2 be happy le.. less quarrels and understanding each other better ^^... yupyup.. nths more 2 say le..my army i dun think i gg in at june/july.. so ya.. slowly find work or juz slack at home 1st..

2007-04-26T02:58:00.000-07:00

2007-04-02T09:20:00.000-07:00

knowing you for the past 38 days was the wonderful.. you came into my life like an angel made me feel the feeling of loving a girl wholeheartly and i did just that. while we were together u told mi abt e guy called heng.. tat ur with him and stuff juz tat hes nw overseas, the 1st thing that went thru my mind was wtf..why u do tis 2 mi...ur same age as mi and his in his 30's... u told mi u both met during ur work place tats at clark quay there okay.. but still i didnt complain i juz took in humble pie. i swallow my pride and my face juz 2 be happy with u den after that we became ok.. den we argue over things like u said i stare at other girls.. i realli did nt.. in my heart only have you den u sms and told me that u felt that it was better we nt together.. i have been trying my best 2 keep us close i knw i cant be compare 2 heng who with u for more den a year plus and when i ask u abt whether u together with him u say u dunno.. during my crm exam period u break that news 2 mi and imagine the nxt morning i having exams.. i didnt sleep but accompany u 2 talk and try 2 cheer u up.. and i went to sit the exam without sleeping the nite.. u knw hw much effort i put in tis relationship.. i realli feel like u wan 2 give up tis relationship but i keep holding on to it lo.. tis time i realli give up le.. if u wan 2 go be with him u feel hes ur happiness den go wit him ba i sincerely wish u all e best with him hope he can take care of you..u ask 4 break 3 times but i ask u dun.. cuz i realli love you sooo much.. u meant everything to me u knw tat? i juz play rakion awhile u wuld juz be angry.. wad did i do? i never pei you? dear i juz went out with you the whole evening and send u back cant i have some time 2 do my own things? i always gave u like 80-90% of all my attention that you always ask mi i go out with who or wad like u dun trust mi at all lo. as wad i see 3 guys nw like u lo..derek,shawn,sparky....u knw hw i feel as ur bf.. so many ppl like u trying 2 tear us apart and i really put in all my effort in tis relationship if realli we never together i wun regret cuz i gave in my all..i dunno if u treat mi as a toy or wad or e word 2 harsh i use...i juz make 1 small mistake or like play game or wad ahilw nt even 1 hour u juz angry and like wan 2 break like tis? is it u keep waitin to find fault in the r/s so you can break with mi? i dunno this is wad i feel if not why u keep on wan 2 break if u feel i m nt suitable for u just tell mi straight in e face dun need 2 waste both our time.

2007-03-18T07:18:00.001-07:00

ever since i be with kady.. for the past 23 days i m realli very happy being with her. shes e only one who made my heart realli go and love a girl back... yes kady i know i m not ah heng and i should not judge myself with him but i realli feel like i cant give u things that you want like money to spend and clothes that u realli like... i m nt rich and stuff but i realli love eu and i try my best to give u all that i could.. all the things you have done for mi i m really grateful and very happy to have you beside me. i know ah heng is the best for u and stuff but i realli wish to know wad are your feelings i know you cant give mi an straight answer and give up a pillar in ur life. hes like u said the perfect guy and i m not but i really try my best to love and take care of you in every single way. your the only girl that i have loved the most and i dun wan to lose you and get hurt the most also u just msg mi when i was typing this.. u said we are not suitable....you like like mi more and i dunno how 2 hong you.. i know i m nt the best but i try my best lo give us some time to understand each other better.now u seem like wan tu break le i realli veri sad u knw but i give each other time to think it through and i try 2 make u happy whenever i see eu sad..wo zheng de ai ni

2007-02-14T07:50:00.000-08:00

ah... juz back frm work.. today i bought cindy 1 sunflower for valentines day.. haa.. ken buy jenna rose roberts buy deela and azizun rose also only mi special giv sunflower. cant giv rose ma i no gf ma haa.. den after sch.. went 2 work lo.. today veri busy and super tired.. dam pissed with my that boss realli cant wait for month end den i quit liao. veri veri tired of working for him le..den alot of customers today lo.. super pack..alot of couples.. see them realli envy all of them.. so happy and see them kai xin.. thou i m single but happy la den gt 1 delivery tis girl i deliver food smile and shake hand wit mi say happy v-dae.. wow.. haa.. pretty chio bu shake my hand LOL honoured. LOLx no la..maybe thank me 4 bringing her e food fast lo.. haa tml i continue tired le

2007-02-11T18:04:00.000-08:00

wahaha finally finish my cai shen ye job le.. wahaha ^^ yup yup.. gt my pay summore hee.. den me and jy went to sakae to eat.. i had the duno wad teriyaki chicken with rice.. den order some sushi.. haa.. per person 14.. ok la.. didnt order alot but fill my stomach so nt bad ba.. also e service ok la.. haa den after that we go back lo.. he go pick his mei mei frm wrk den i go back.. was at home in e evening.. so guai sia.. LOL.. sms shitty but she like dulan.. duno lei feel like avoiding me. lol^^ oh well nxt week presentation le.. muz chiong ah! finish it..

2007-02-11T10:19:00.000-08:00

haa.. juz wake up.. ytd i working frm 8am till 7.30pm.. almost 12 hours.. was at 3 places running events at 8am was at lorong napiri off yio chu kang road den after e event end at 12.30.. rush down to bedok north ntuc to do the cai shen ye again den bedok reservior dere... super tired.. alot of funny things happen today as usual i give the golden choco coins den 3 ppl come give mi money.. wth.. 50 cent 2 dollar and 10 dollars.. alamak. i duno y also weird lo tis ppl.. all areas dun have only bedok area...lol.. den after work end aorund 8+.. went meet ken,cindy,jenna,geff,hui fung.. we went orchard cuz my boss sun bian drive mi down as stay dere.. den i met them den actually say hao hao all go watch movie den in e end only ken me and cindy watch movie.. the unseeable.. so stupid thai show.. regret watching.. so lame lo. only tat cindy la keep so scared scared keep whack my hand cuz me and ken keep prank her. LOL... after tat we all went back le.. i reach home around 3-4am++.. den be4 i slp i go count how mani hours i working and out around 18 hours liao.. scary.. haa..

2007-02-07T17:57:00.000-08:00

Bumps.. long time no post le.. sick le.. fever cough flu etc.. every normal sickness i tio.. haa sway.. sis flying off today le.. 6 mths time den can see her.. around dere ba..

2007-01-30T09:03:00.000-08:00

haa.. veri long no blog le.. become alot of spider webs le.. haas.. ya.. today i no sch so working whole day.. den alot of ppl talking abt singapore vs thailand match tml.. i gt 500 on hand feel like go play but in e end dun1 bet le cuz think abt it dun1 folo my father footsteps etc.. and tml my boss say he paying me my pay suppose 2 be today de lor. he ah i duno him la wan cheat my 136.50.. haa.. dun think abt it. u cant cheat mi de esp $$ matter ^^ ya ya.. hmm tml go sch take foto.. haaa muz wear good good haa. duno stand with who take. LOLx.. duno wad happen 2 annie also so long neva contact her le. wonder how she doing. haa maybe she hate mi or wad as usual? lols. duno.. oh well.. tml work again le. chiong ah..

2007-01-24T01:01:00.000-08:00

haa today i went shc went back e time george call mi say course manager saw my hair etc.. den like tis lo think muz go dye back black le. haas!! but i dun care ba i still left 1 bottle of e hair spray haa =)) so ya.. so relax abit lo hmm.. gg 2 work le come back den write ba. finish my crm project le. EBP left report 2 write and some coding left.. tired sia..

2007-01-21T10:57:00.000-08:00

ya.. dun ask mi about this picture.. actually no1 knows tis blog link except annie haa and myself of course.. ya.. ytd night had a veri sad dream tat i even cried in my dream? can cry in dreams meh? i duno juz tat wake up in tears in my eyes.. ya.. and when i open my picture gallery i saw tis picture.. brings all memories of me and her back.. when we together almost 1 year.. be4 we broke.. ya.. tis was taken at marina mandarina hotel during my sis 21st b-dae.. ya as u can see we were still veri close tis was around 10mths le? i cant remb around there ba.. and e only 1st and time i ever saw her wear a dress.. haa i remmeber i last time keep ask her wear dress she die die also dun1 de.. but finally she wore can see the smile frm my face when i pick her up frm her hse 2 go down haa..^^ well from wad i heard shes now together with this guy called Rofino chan.. they around 3-4 mths together le.. all i can do is wish them happiness ba.. like 1 of my best buddy jinng yi he used 2 like tis song i duno e name but veri nice lo. haa when i got the name i put here ba. haa

2007-01-21T09:10:00.000-08:00

hmm today was thinking wad if i tell a girl i like her and gt rejected? hmm.. or wad if she say be gd buddy or sumthin? etc? hmm r/s really likes 2 take a twist in ur life ya? duno y also lei.. today end work veri tiring..like tis surviving.. nw i getting CPF but i got 2 do more work more delivery cuz nw more blocks 2 cover and mi 1 person do waiter delivery and dishwasher.. all in 1 guy.. veri veri shag.. but no choice lo..kinda tired of working.. how i wish dere's a girl beside me to be with mi like a gf? or a companion? i realli hen wish fer 1 now to be with me and love me and i love her also. seriously.. feeling veri tired.. haa

2007-01-16T09:09:00.000-08:00

hmmm work work and work? juz back frm work.. been working full shift today den jinng yi call mi ask mi work e event work again. yay!! got extra money again.. song song.. haa den today boss and chef quarrel again now is cuz 1 customer say e fish like no salt LOL dam lame la they both.. nw muz chiong go poly cuz i told my mum can gimme money ma if i go poly i wan 2 finish my driving and other stuff so ya..

2007-01-14T08:57:00.000-08:00

ahh.. tired.. juz back frm work.. everyday working.. kinda tired lo.. hmm... tml sch start le. must chiong my projects all le.. veri slacken behind schedule.. tats abt it ba wanan find mi call mi hp ba.. i lost all my contacts so nw on way to getting them all back.. my 234 contacts.. lol..

2007-01-03T08:28:00.000-08:00

haa.. today went orchard with roberts and jinngyi.. and jinngyi hai. veri sien for him. his gf say no wth. waste our time and effort i acc him go buy things search whole sg for the items all over den like tis. den we go watch 2 movies and be happy for today! haa watch flyboys and night at the museum i learn 1 thing dum dum i wan gum gum haa1 super funny e show and flyboy dam chio nice show.. den went back around 12 le.. den we chiong in e rain 2 take mrt they left 1st.. my train no more le. so i took cab home.. haa.. fun lo.. enjoy myself lots and btw i cancel my work 2 go out haa! muz enjoy la keep work no life so tired and sien muz enjoy abit hor. oh yes the pics 4 last time christmas eve celebration i put here ah ger finally send mi le haas!

2007-01-02T08:22:00.000-08:00

hurray! today got my pay.. for my amk tat job.. gt 270 for wrking 6 days.. veri nice job and boss wun regret if wan 2 work back for her again will chiong de ^^ anyway today tired juz end work frm cafe also tiring wanna quit le sia dun 1 work at e cafe le.. feel veri sien. anyway tml 3rd jan le.. time pass veri fast den today walk wlak den 3 ger approach us haa dun1 say e detials but gt numbers etc.. lols! veri funny day and happening ba haa. ok sleepy le nites

2006-12-31T17:20:00.000-08:00

weee... today is 1 janurary 2007 le.. lols.. juz came back frm outside.. kinda boring tis new year celebrate with parklane ppl no1 2 go out with.. sien.. dun1 blog so much le.. working le tml gtg slp.

2006-12-25T23:59:00.000-08:00

yea.. today is christmas dae!! ^^ yupyup.. juz came back from work and ya have 2 do like 2-3 days of washing or dishes and utensils.. cuz my boss lazy and today quarrel with andrew.. think things are not going as well le.. andrew wan 2 leave den boss say sorry 2 mi 4 shouting at me.. but nvm la i understand u keep make us work like siao i hope u know wad u doing 2 ur staffs ya? while working andrew also ask mi y i no gf,den i say no ger wan lo. den he say i nt ugly or wad got 2 eyes 2 ears all wth.. i know tis la but my christmas wish is actually 2 find a girl serious in a r/s not treat bf like su ka su ka need him den find him lidat give him attention and dun throw him 1 corner...well tis is my wish for e new year plan 2 find a serious girl ba. well i met 1 recently who is exactly the opposite of mi. things we think are e same things we do are also same like same things same car and intro her new food she dun like but in e end enjoy eating le.. haa^^ but dun1 2 chase her la. cuz u see if a guy say e question out. if e girl doesnt think tat way but treat eu like a normal fren or sister or jiejie or brother? den even friends will be hard 2 be next time.. so i rather be gd frenz den lose a friend ya? ya and true heart sometimes can tell u if u met the right girl for eu. only fate and time can tell u e answer so juz wait and see how things go.. juz hope e girl wuld be happy and hope her wishes for the new year also will come true^^ yupyup tats all ba haas. btw intending 2 change my blog link le.

2006-12-24T18:14:00.001-08:00

woo... today is christmas eve.. now its sooooo late.. juz back frm partying.. haas.. hmmmz.. today i was at home only in e night den went out.. today i celebrate christmas eve with ying zi... haa realli had a great time. thanks ying zi.. ^^ well i met her at her place den she go change clothes all and headed down 2 orchard.. pack like siao.. we both haven eat so we go walk walk finding places to eat but realise tat everywhre is packed so squeezy... haa but fun lo.. den e worse thing is alot of ppl keep spray the snow thing.. den we all tio den dam dulan keep scold nb cb.. haa den we walk walk till pissed off le..den after keep tio spray we dulan we go and buy spray can also.. each of us hold 2 cans.. HEE... den while walking we see some bangala walk past us we spray their head. LOL!! dam funny lo keep laugh and laugh till bth each other..den suppose 2 meet mui hua but we both keep run about so in e end like neva meet.. den i also spray her also.. den be4 12.. we both make wishes.for the new year.. den after 12+ le.we went 2 eat plastic at BP there...den eat till happily.. den went sit down at park nearby chit chat lo. den duno y i keep feel like vomitting so i m here now 2 write lo if not we will chat till morning de.. so sorry ying zi.. dui bu qi. i make it up 2 eu k? STUPID EU! haas lucky u dunno my blog link haa^^ realli happi and i will post e pics we take when u send mi ya? haas.. thx 4 lightning my life up tis dae wen no1's dere with me tooo.. huggies*

2006-12-20T09:14:00.000-08:00

haiz. veri tired. work and work. and veri sleepy not enuff slp.. need 2 earn money.. realli sien of my family and stuff. hai. and ger ask mi 2 be her boy but i juz ignore e question.. working and working everyday. 2 b continues..

2006-12-15T23:14:00.000-08:00

ah.. today go work again got my pay of 450 but my boss pay mi 400 only he short of money.. lols.. den den i go meet ken they all celebrate geff b-dae ya lo.. den afta tat wit wan ting and metta at nydc hav a coffee chat chat lo.. den went back. veri tired.. sleepy and shag. haa..^^

2006-12-07T12:12:00.000-08:00

ah.. 5 more days till CRM exam... haa chiong ah.. just back from work..ah... alot of work.. been having alot of missed lunch or dinner or breakfast or never eat wholeday also got cuz keep work till forgotton to eat also..den today in sch i met cindy early to go sch.. den we play scissors paper and stone till veri jialat. i keep lose.. grrr.. bully mi sia so i not happy so i say who lose kenna 30 seconds.. wa seh den i lose over 100 seconds.. den i keep tahan till like wan die lidat. cuz veri ticklish ma.. haa..den after that went creative cuz she wan 2 see mp3 buy fer her cousin. went with e group of us lo.. den i faster chiong to work cuz i late.. den went work 20min late. but juz now i cover back with 30min more extra.. haas..today quite tiring lo. got delivery all also.. okok i end here ba. tml working full shift again.. haas! jiayou paul!

2006-12-06T18:55:00.000-08:00

i used to hate eating carrots maybe its juz at e back of my mind tat tells mi its disgusting but ytd had some food while working.. haa. the carrot super soft.. tis few days working as usual. and started studying today only for my crm exam which is coming up really soon.hafta chiong....

2006-12-03T23:28:00.000-08:00

haa.. today veri few customer.. but saw all the pub bosses and i knw my pay.. not even 1000.. but ok la.. quite happy with my job.. haa super tired tats all abt wad i do today juz work and work tml sch liao.. den hafta chiong exam cuz exam 12 dec.. le.. sien.!!

2006-12-02T23:55:00.000-08:00

ahhh.. today juz back from work.. super tired.. haa.. tml morning muz go read my crm book le.. cuz exams coming le.. hafta chiong ah!! haas..!! juz updated my wishlist be4 end of this year wad i plan 2 achieve now and next year ba. nth much didnt go out juz keep work only. cuz i now become delivery man haa

2006-12-01T23:35:00.000-08:00

ahh.. today super tired.. wake up i chiong 2 work at Haveli Cafe.. work frm 11-4.. actually till 3 only but boss extend mi 1 more hour cuz 2 mani customers..after that i went 2 meet roberts at far east.. he going 2 buy N93.. den while waiting we went 2 prank Cindy.. her face so black.. maybe she working canot joke all tis.. haas..!! hmm.. den he went nokia shop.. e phone cost 1223SGD.. super ex.. i went to ask my nokia sirrocco.. more siao.. 1450SGD.. more ex.. ahhh.. hear e price dun1 buy le cuz i think i see song can le.. no point buy.. ha.. den we went down bugis.. i went 2 see mui hua.. she working dere haa.. super pale.. must drink more water hor and eat more bugis more ppl u promoter.. muz eat more hor!! and rest more las.. lol.. den chat till around 10 min be4 6pm.. i quickly rush down with roberts go my work place.. cuz i start work at 6.. den i reach late 4 work.. 6.20.. alamak but my boss no scold he veri flexible guy la. cuzi hardworking ma =x den i realise sumthing. i wholeday never eat a single thing. haa.. juz went straight back 2 work. u realise i neva put i eat also? cuz i neva eat.. haa den roberts order beef lagsagne set.. den i give him e coke full soup suppose 2 give half bowl i give full ice cream 2 scoops only i give 7 scoops haa=x oops hope my boss no see lol!! ^^ and summore got discount.. normal 1 set is 9.80.. he pay 9 dollars only ^^ den i continue work and work.. till around 10+ den i tell boss i get pay for my november pay.. haa only 100SGD.. but ok la. i work 5 days only.. and 4 hours each time. haa. so its 5 per hour not bad ba.. juz like tat work..but quite fun lo..jiayou paul! i muz find time for my studies also le.. crm coming and everynight i working so muz find time le oh..

2006-11-29T23:43:00.000-08:00

sleepy. tired. shag. tats all for nw. haas

2006-11-27T23:26:00.000-08:00

ahh.. today tired..went to sch as usual.. den end sch went eat with gang at clementi hawker there.. den i have to wait till 2 den go bukit batok for a student dialogue.. and e dialogue super sien. waste my time.. i knw i dun go le. so toot 1.. wth..den i rush down go and pick up ann bao bei and lil bro.. cuz i bringing them go watch happy feet.. lol.. kinda nice lo e show we went vivo city around 5plus but shows till 9.30 all fully book.. wth. fan jian! den we rush to the cathay and so mani space so we go dere watch.. haas..den we book tix le go play arcade. i wear sch uni can go arcade.. power la. haas.. den den after movie we watch till around 9 plus den bring them back to parklane den eat fried rice.. den went home after that.. haa..super tiring day today.. tml gg to work le.. haa jiayou paul! haas.. i wonder blogging is like talking 2 urself cuz no1 2 share wad u did today? haa. kinda like lonely activity.

2006-11-26T12:56:00.000-08:00

argh.. tired.. today i went afternoon for my guitar lessons.. nt feeling happy thou.. cuz i neva practise den tio scold.. den sien.. den went ann house den eat my lunch and dinner den in e evening meet wendy go watch the andy lau show.. till come back nw lo.. kinda boring and sien e whole day. muz find things 2 do.. cant keep spend money all tis.. muz make full use of my time le.. jiayou paul! muz be happy k k k ?

2006-11-24T23:13:00.000-08:00

today go work.. fun lor.. quite alot of customers.. and we had this promotion beef stew.. 5 dollars only.. haas.. nice lor.. i had 2 try cuz e chef and boss dun eat beef.. HEE so free food haas^^ den work work le.. end at 3.30pm lidat.. went back 2 slp.. den in e evening went 2 parklane.. nth 2 do sia.. den i saw wendy and wing yee.. haa den went back veri early today.. i need 2 work more. i found out that my sch fee's werent paid.. tat means i hav 2 pay myself. cant depend on my parents muz jiayou myself ^^ god will help wo? haas. i reali hope so..

2006-11-22T18:25:00.000-08:00

wooot.. today end sch early.. haa alvin let us off early.. so me and cindy and roberts go his hse 2 watch movie.. we borrow around 6 shows? roberts borrow 3 i borrow 3.. cost mi ex lor.. 13+++
den i broke.. den we watch scary movie 4,muscial high school,jason goes to hell,the exorcist.. movie marathon.. haas.. den we watch frm around 2 till 7plus.. duno how mani shows.. super tiring..den i was feeling sick cuz gt flu.. den went home with cindy.. den chat chat chat again.. as usual.. den i bought a earing btw in sch canteen for 1 friend. veri nice de.. butterfly de ^^den went home le.. bath den tak cab down go meet joan.. she tis few days quite sad den broke wit her bf.. den veri sian so i giv her e earing 2 cheer her up.. i knw cheap la. but its e thought that counts ma. haas. den i send her back.. she stay marsling.. omg... far.. lols. nvm ba. if can make her feel beta can le.. den i went back... den slp le.. haa. super tired.. whole day do so mani things run so many places

2006-11-20T23:25:00.000-08:00

sleepy.. sleepy is hw i m feeling rite nw.. haa.. today morning oversleep went 2 sch.. once sch start nth much happen.. veri sleepy.. tml working le.. no need 2 go sch tomorrow yipee!! den planning to save money and pay 4 driving liscence cuz me and my sis plan 2 buy our own car. we both share money buy car.. weekend car.. so ya muz hav liscence be4 buy car ma. haas..!! so muz jiayou le ^^ must try 2 remmeber all e rules basic seems easy but i must pass!!

2006-11-19T22:57:00.000-08:00

hmmm yesterday and today did nth much.. whhole day at home.. kinda sien.. tml go sch le.. hai.. reali boring weekends.. no fwenz 2 go out wit.. lols.. becoming lonely? i dunno.. hmmm... but still got my guitar 2 pei me. HAAs=x lols okok

2006-11-17T23:35:00.000-08:00

YaWnZz... today kinda sleepy cuz i wake up around 9am++.. den went to work at 11.. today 1st day of work.. veri nervous scared 2 make mistakes but in e end all things goes well.. den work lo.. at 1st no customer i have to wash all e dishes etc.. kinda tiring la.. but ok lor.. cuz at home do housework so like no diff only tat i getting paid for it. haas! den i knock off frm work at 3.. den discussing my schedule come out he need me work 2 days only.. frm 11-3 as usual cuz peak hour ma. den he say wad after 25 november or december i cant remmeber e date.. he wan me 2 work everyday le.. like full time lor..den not bad la.. after work i go sms cindy ask her come out celebrate with me.. haas cuz she wrking in orchard ma. so date her out 4 a movie called step up.. as usual i meet her i late.. omg.. lols.. den we watch e show super funny its a MUST see show.. nice lor^^ den on e way back we sit in bus as usual keep disturb each other den got 1 guy sit beside her say cant u dun keep hitting me. den we both like tiam tiam wth. we wan 2 play ma if not wait till 20+ den play? LOLx. either he no stead or friend or hes GAY. i think he is cuz he has tis gay look in his face. haas^^ den tats hw today went lor.oh ya i had mos burger and gave tat mos burger crew a smile card ^^ for dinner.lunch and breakfast didnt eat.

2006-11-16T23:35:00.000-08:00

wee u weet! today i went 2 east coast with cindy we go fly kite e whoel day from 12-go home time? haa till around 5 or 6plus zhi peng come also haa while we flying we walk and walk e whole day got rain play in e rain also haas. quite fun lo today and also tio burn cuz veri hot weather also.. den we go eat at mac for dinner.. and i eat chicken rice in bus.. cindy treat mi eat. lols. thx ah. den keep disturb each other haas!! juz feel happy la cuz got sum1 2 accompany mi ma. can laugh play enjoy be happy and best of all outgoing summore lorx!! haas. today 1 of e happiest day.. tml working le.. 1st day at my work place. try 2 be a good staff and also must jiayou!! i wan 2 work veri hard leave a gd impression hee^^ jiayou paul! and jiayou cindy !! tml u wrking le jiayou also haas^^

2006-11-15T23:53:00.000-08:00

Wee!!! =))) today super happy lor.. cuz tml and friday no more sch.. haas^^ so can go out wit frenz or work btw.. i got a new job le.. at a cafe near my house here called Havenli Cafe.. friday starting work.. knw y i happy? cuz no sch ma of course happy la and i went for my guitar lessons today and got for my sister a guitar. cuz her old guitar spoil le den i sunbian sell e old de buy a new white guitar for her.. super nice lorx!! hee i spent 210 for it.. after i traded in e old guitar.. today learn new strumming method etc.. quite a fun day. btw yanzhu and mui hua. you both ah better take care of urself if not i will come and take care of u both..1 sick 1 heart broken. omg.. hai.. jiayou k^^ i will be there 2 jiayou u all ^^ and of course annie also hope her flu better le jiayou^^ okok i beta go and play wit my sis new guitar.. hope shes likes it when she comes back hee~

2006-11-14T23:58:00.000-08:00

1st of all happy birthday ying xuan.. today no sch.. so i woke up kinda late today.. around 8+? den juz viewing frenster and etc.. today going 2 watch movie at vivo city hmm actually wan 2 watch materialistic girls den i check e seating den super no space so we change to flushed away.. so i met cindy to go down and buy tickets 1st den we met den on e way roberts came and we wait 4 e rest den zhi peng and e rest all come.. hmm.. e show kinda nice lo.. had burger king for lunch and juz walk walk around my work place lo cuz i wrking p/t at vivo city as information guide ma haas.. so i knw e whole place kinda well lorx. hmm so watch watch den share money with yiwei buy popcorn and eat lo in cinema. hass den keep disturb yiwei and jenna cuz both beside mi haas^^ den we went to city hall to eat.. the New York New York at city link inside.. super nice e food veri big helping.. i eat rostierie chicken 14.90.. and 1 drink 3.90.. veri ex.. den with GST i spent abt 21 dollars lo.. i over spent den we eat eat den veri funny lo. haa jenna root beer keep over flow cuz of e gas inside den gt tis cute ger keep smile and juz wipe den chat wit her also ^^ haa veri funny juz disturb her Lolx.. den we went to esplanade to cut cake for ying xuan.. den we went e rooftop.. long time no go le. like 5 mths + le? haas.. total 12 of us wen to celebrate 2gether.. not bad la class unity ^^ den after cut and eat cake we playgames lo den i tio forefeet also haas. den dance and sing sum weird and funyn thing lo. den gt tis group of man like playing catching.. they around 40-50+ den we keep say they so big le still act cute LOL... den went home le. today veri fun day haa gd gd and i slowly recovering le.. hope annie also recovr soon as she gt flu. jiayou^^ tats abt it today ba haas

2006-11-13T23:58:00.000-08:00

juz back frm parklane...today i didn't go sch as i went 2 see doc.. realli veri sick.. den veri bad headache.. went x-ray.. i tot i tio "TB" but doc say heng i veri heaty tats y got cough blood out.. i call cindy over my hse go watch movies den we watch a few movies ^^ thx cindy 4 acc mi when i sick. den while on e way back was chatting wit annie. i realli dun1 2 hurt or be hurt la i hope u understand la. wad for i be with u den hurt u? like tis i bastard right? i rather u hate mi as a friend den i hurt u as someone close 2 u so i hope u understand my decision and yes e song i composed is for you to thx u 4 all e time u were dere for mi when no1's dere i veri grateful to eu. and always sms or msg mi 1st i knw wad u doing i not numb, just feel disappointed when i giv u e ans u suddenly change. if u realli wan 2 be tgether i can tell u i m a veri simple guy but i cant love u full heartly i told u le unless a girl make mi feel she's worth me giving my love to her. i dun1 2 be hurt or hurt another girl le. tats abt it today. nth good today. moody monday.
P.s:whatever i type here its how i feel and please dun ask mi abt it k?

2006-11-12T06:01:00.000-08:00

Hmmm.. today kinda a boring day lor.. wake up veri late den only play audition cuz nth beta 2 do didnt feel like going out i whole day cough cuz 2 heaty.. was running a slight fever and in e afternoon i cought blood out only until recently evening time den reali alot of blood come out like 1 cup full? its tat much keep bleeding den my mum juz came back frm msia frm her relaxing trip nearly faint ask mi keep go hospital go doc but i dun1 i say no need la>.< small thing ma to me.. den annie keep ask mi go see doc also mui hui ask mi put salt.. cheryl ask mi pluck my teeth out! wth! lol.. seems like i finally realise alot of ppl concern 4 mi lo.. juz tat i take them 4 granted.. thx ppl^^ thou i dun say it out but i m thankful.. now stop bleeding le.. lunch had meepok dry and dinner had fish soup.. quite ok la.. i didnt wanna eat much cuz also neva go out and stuff i no more working.. but outside my hse here finding ppl 2 work so i planning to work for it.. giving them my schedule soon.. ^^ see how ba hope i realli get well.. veri sick tis 2-3 days le.. jiayou liu zhi an^^

2006-11-11T23:45:00.000-08:00

YawnzZ!! today wake up super early.. around 9 am.den waitin 4 jenna and cindy to come my hse cuz we all baking cookies so when they come we all bake cookies lo and keep disturb each other den we watch show den our cookies i put 2 much water den 2 soft..but still 2 sweet e cookies cuz alot of chocolate and nw i also sick le.. i lost my sence of taste and keep coughin i m over heated up my body.. cuz tis few days keep eat oily food till to heaty tat i cough all phlem come out.. veri er.. but trying to recover back quickly..den was playing my guitar and trying to edit e song lo.. cuz abit off tune.. den was raining heavily den lunch time so i went to buy bak chor mee for all of us eat. super nice sia.. den while eat as usual disturb cindy and jenna haas!! normal ma me. like to disturb ppl ^^ den around 6+ i go bath den we chiong out.. still raining lo.. den took cab down to clementi cuz meeting zhi peng as we going to teach e senior citizen at the community club again. ahas den teach finish again got happy feeling cuz helping ppl i like ma got the sence of achievement and money cant buy the feeling or wad so yup veri happy den zhi peng acc me go eat cuz i haven eat. den we chat lo normal guys chattin haa den we both take mrt home.. reach home around 11+ le..tats abt it today happy happyday^^

2006-11-10T10:57:00.000-08:00

hur hur.. today friday.. gothic friday? why gothic? cuz i whole day never go out amazing right? whole day except in e evening la veri late lo.. was chattin wit mui hua thru sms e whole day and got 2 know her more and more haas. den talk abt r/s etc.. den kinda happy tat we actually have alot of things in common like going shopping? outdoor activities etc.. hope she take care of herself oh.. haas she come tat 1.. OOpx! haas.. den i went to parklane as usual play a few challenger table till 2am++ which is now den went 4 sum supper with gary and adrian den went home lo.. kinda ok la.. tml cindy jenna coming my hse bake cookies and tml evening i going to clementi community centre to teach the elderly how to surf internet with zhi peng.. hope tml will be happy also ^^ get the satisfaction guarentee! and btw i composed my new 2nd song le thou realli off e words but e tune i get it le juz the lyrics need to have some changes jiayou paul^^ i can do it de^^ nth is 2 hard 4 mi de as long as i put my soul and heart in it wahha ^^

2006-11-09T08:20:00.000-08:00

ahhh... today sch nt bad la.. end early quite slack etc.. den i went 2 khatib to meet jamie and gang den i cor jy cuz he stay nearby ma so we agree meet den go meet my frenz they all so we meet them le den they like super shy and like disappointed. duno lo juz see their face when see mi like sian liao den i was like nvm la. den i actually dam hot juz nw but try 2 cool down cuz i come all e way to khatib there den meet le den after less den half hour they all zhao le. its like wtf.. sibei wad lo. if anyone like mi also sure veri dulan 1. anyway den after tat i went his hse 2 slack lo.. watch tv watch the Jue dui superstar.. super funny sia! haas bth keep laugh laugh like siao den keep ji siao each other so long neva hav such fun le thou quite mature le but nvm la juz enjoy and let loose awhile den he walk me below go buy drink all den we chat and ex gf and stuff.. aiya past is past le right? must let go right? past dun go future wun come! haas. tats wad u say and i totally agree.. ^^ anyway tats abt wad happen lo today nth much liao. juz wanna haf a gd rest cuz tml will be a better day den today ^^ jiayou Paul!

2006-11-08T12:36:00.000-08:00

went sch
went home
bath
change
take guitar
leave for lessons at parklane
go pcbunk see see awhile
have lessons
meet ann and gary 4 dinner
eat food
play billard
talk wit jamie on fone
reached home
bath
change play audi with luan yin and jamie
still on fone
neck pain
put fone down
went to slp

Short and Simple abt One's Day ^^

2006-11-07T08:25:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday Roberts Kenneth Jonathan ur 1 yr older le HEE hope u enjoy ur birthday juz nw and thanks for e treat as swensen.. ^^

2006-11-04T21:40:00.000-08:00

hmm today went 2 east coast with kenneth cindy jenna... actually is last minute thing sia den we all went den keep cycle. we were looking for a shop to rent bike cuz usually e rates are like for doubles its 8 dollars for 1 hour 1 hour free but today its 1 hour half hour free and only 1 shop gt give half hour free.. e rest all no free hour so yucks!! haa den we cycle frm mac dere to bedok jetty and back.. den veri funny cindy and jenna wan 2 try sit in front for jenna she can but me and cindy she keep panic and i panic with her and we always nearly buang! haa super super funny keep laugh and when i was cycling to bedok jetty.. 1 ang moh couple say tat shes cheating and point to us den i wonder wad ma. den i turn behind i saw she never cycle! haa!! evil!!* den we went to fly kite me and cindy as kenneth and jenna dun1 den cindy bought 1 kite octopus kite haa looks like yiwei.. oOps* den keep fly fly and fly actually e start e kite dun1 2 go up den we ask ppl 2 help us they cant also but in e end it flew up le. ^^ den super happy lo.. den we all went back after jenna treat mi eat kenny rogers haa at last i got my treat le! HEE eat the half ribs with mash potato and coleshaw.. super nice haa nt bad la lols..

2006-11-03T21:43:00.000-08:00

today went parklane as usual.. super boring den gg back saw carelynn.. she look super shag.. haa like days neva slp and pimples all popping out le. heng she duno tis my blog if nt tio pah LOl!!! den went home den we chat on msn also den she ask mi 2 go genting but sry ah i went to renew i need 2 apply for exit permit all those veri mafan and give duno wad valid reason ps. i gg in ns le so cant go. hope u understand anyway my audition lvl 10 le. and my guitar skills is also improving!!^^ kk i shall end here le ba.

2006-11-02T19:01:00.000-08:00

YawNzz.. back frm a long break.. haa sch realli tiring.. everydae projects and being veri tied up with all my ccas and sch work and i plan to take motor liscence but parents strongly object and friends also quan me not to take but i realli like motor much more den car well its been a long week and finally its weekend.. and still i gtg do project at fren hse. gtg do flash for our e-business project.. cuz my hse no flash.. thought of going fishing de but like no time etc.. argh.. okok i end here i go hav a afternoon nap.

2006-05-15T05:07:00.000-07:00

hello diary.. i m back le.. yup after such a long way no time 2 talk 2 u.. ya.. i 4gotten her le.. thx 2 my nu`er cindy she made mi realise no point holding on or waitin or wadeva 4 ppl. ya its me who ask 2 be seperated but i hav tried askin her out 3 times and all she buzi maybe she think i hurt her or wad but. does she think in my shoes if she was me? does she wan 2 be kept waitin and wad if she like another guy or wad? i will be being given false hope? i duno tis is wad i assume maybe i nt a good guy 2 her lo juz hurt her all.den she wan put tattoo. so its like e end i tried 2 stop her frm putting 1 but she still wan 2 put ya.. so its i cant stop her or wad lo but if i realli so happen 2 saw her be4 she put 1 i gonna pull her out of the shop lo. ya la i still care for her all cuz i promise her tat i will still care 4 her no matter wad lo and i do keep my word i last time took her ex stuff is 2 remove tat hurt frm her frm her last time ex so tat when i was wit her she will 4get abt her ex totally cuz nth 2 remind her of any hurts etc. but we're nt together but i will help her hold till she feels she wan it back i return her ba by tat time comes guess she maybe find a better guy den me ba. wad 2 do i gt financial problems father gamble wad 2 do? i no money of course no ger wan ma. i know she nt after money or wad but still if she wit me she will suffer ma cuz i hav no money etc and she likes 2 put tattoo i juz hate it.and wednesday i gg surgery le so mani problems.. in sch i do see her sad but i cant be sad cuz i m crying my heart out always trying 2 peek at her but i guess she found sum1 else better no matter wad its like over 4 us ma wad can i do? everythings my fault i nt fate 4 ani girl gd enuff. y love cant stop a girl frm doing things tat would harm their body. i always repeat is cuz i care 4 her alot lo.. i know its very fan but i juz mean well 4 her. but always get e wrong idea. i knw i oversensitive etc. but i trying 2 change so much le lo. wad is true love. hope it would come 2 me.

2006-05-11T17:14:00.000-07:00

oo back le. tis few weeks veri low esteem and confidence feeling so sad etc.. juz nw ask her again if she's free but shes meeting frenz so ya.. shes like veri buzi ok..maybe she feels i hurt her etc but i dun like 2 be left 1 side duno if ur my stead or not it feels veri left out not havin any aim in life. but today after school i and cindy went 2 k-box and thx nu`er u realli made my dae. thx 4 accompany me and cheering me up. when singing all those songs i realli feel so much better =) thx a million. and i hav let it go le. no use hangin on 2 the past if the past is gone as for the future later den say ba. haa den we saw the catching machine.. ya.. and got tis super big winnie the pooh bear..e size like my nu`er also.. haa =) and i try 2 catch it lo cuz i like 2 see smiles on ppl faces it do cheer mi up alot. and yup i catch the winnie the pooh and as usual the uncle there taking care of the stall nt happy wit me cuz i always catch the toys away =x i old customer ma..den gave e bear 2 cindy..tis hw today went feel much better with frenz who can cheer u up. thx. no use chasing for a princess cuz all r princess who will come and leave ur heart only the true princess will come by itself so i dun ned 2 waste time 2 chase ani or wad =) if she will be mine she will be =) but still was realli happi today =) nitenite diary i knw u always get all my shouts at. sry =x

2006-05-10T17:40:00.000-07:00

ya.. i m back today.. juz came home frm parklane.. cuz today after sch i went out with my god auntie's.. gave them a treat and when i was gg home in train jenna and jacklyn were there so together i ask them go eat ba so i treat all eat.. sunbian sunbian lo.. jennea wen jack hse cuz she gettin clothes so i was in plaza sing alone so i went up 2 yamaha to check their courses out and i decided 2 take drums.. yup.. in e end i went 2 learn drums.. and sign up 4 e course.. happi ba.. cuz i dun ned 2 think so much etc..and let e past go like all my friends say i siao 4 wad go all e way 2 her place den juz go back. if u read my earlier post u wuld understand le ba. but juz let it go ba. there isnt ani girl good lo all r like crap. 1st hurt is juan nw 2nd hurt is ping. i dun1 2 be hurt anyomre fk all e r/s i dun believein true love abt wad girl will love u wit her whole heart all tis.. feeling dam hurt now.. tats y i was outside and my fren talk 2 me. they told mi also e same reason if she my true love or wad she will be mine no point trying so hard 2 hold back de they will 1 day turn around and know tat u once love them alot. and then like tis..dun1 think so much le ba...can say i cant live without a stead or wad ba cuz i always go for long r/s not short terms cuz 1st i dun play and 2nd is cuz i m a lonely guy who seems happi like alot of frenz but actually i m very lonely inside. tats y i tend 2 be veri sensitive in r/s try 2 make my girl as happy as i can. i m not flirt or wad lo. i juz dun1 2 be felt left alone. i always try 2 talk 2 frenz who r closer 2 me but always cant go out wit me den i m always alone at home tats y i keep go out 2 play pool nt because i wan sometime but realli i feel veri lonelyt cuz at least i at there i feel abit happy cuz gt ppl 2 talk 2 and friends 2 laugh and joke. but once i leave that place all e sadness comes back. when will my princess come and bring mi hope and joy and happiness in my life. hen wish 2 see her. any1 tat truly loves and cares for me

2006-05-07T22:19:00.000-07:00

today monday le.. start back sch.. things seems normal but still i do think of my past when i was with her.. when i saw her in sch today.. it feels so hard 2 revert back to normal cuz i feel so lonely nw tat i m alone again.. den juz nw talk 2 jinngyi.. ya den he told me he gt gf.. i guess shes young cute as usual.. lol but can see he usually serious towards her and good thing is he forgotten abt his ex wen qing.. ya.. took him so long to 4get her.. i wonder how i will 4get her.. its like 9 mths+ we together den suddenly i will be free most of the time as not meeting her etc.. i do miss the hugs kisses etc.. really was happy with her alot but sitll at the same time hurt by the quarrels we both hav with each other. dere's a point of time where we both quarrel almost everyday..i do cry still i know i may sound sissy or wad but i m nt ok.. guys do cry juz tat they dun show it in face unless they realli seriously cant hold back their tears... nw back home le.. continue ba.. ya.. i juz viewed aiping frenster and saw e profile.. was like thinkin was it refering 2 me? den under agirl tat is.. she change all le and put tis..

Knowing SoMOnE In YoUr lIfE Is vErY HaPpY.bUt, U wIlL Be sAd iF 1dAy SoMoNe GaVe u aN AnswEr.BUt, CanT FoRcE De..So rEmAiN As beFoRe bA..UnLeSs OnE FiNe dAy, tHe AnSwErS wIlL Be dIfFeReNt. another is H@iz, lIfE so sad...dun neo what should i do..me so stress.HoPe, I Be A HAPpY gAl nExT TiMeno matter what will happen, hope will be happy always and same as before....
A GaL That Is:*Independent de...*Tresure Me Before You Hou Hui*lOvEs To eaT,tRy oUt nEw kInD Of fOoDs*GoInG OuT*eASY gOING*fRIENdY*Can LEnD YoU a lisTenInG Ear If YoU Need SoMeone To tALK tO*lOvE To mAKE fRiEnDs* got limited temper (please dun test me)
and last is she put p.s:hope 1 day, a me waiting de ans will come. i was blur so i juz called her up and ask her abt those. and she juz say she read frm book den copy lo. okay.. nvm. realli duno wad she mean. bt anyway wad 4 i love her so much when she dun even knw wad she wan in life keep duno tis duno tat. wait till she know le den say lo. i dun wish 2 care 2 much le i becoming more cold.

2006-05-06T12:01:00.000-07:00

today i dun wish 2 comment anymore ya.. juz tat when i receive a call frm aiping father. he told me tat aiping nt at home and ask mi she whre and tat her hp also off. i was dam worried althought break le i still so much concern 4 her lo. all my friends say i stupid and wad 4 rush all e way down 2 go and look 4 her. cuz i veri worried sumthin bad may happen 2 her and stuff. so i took cab down and it was raining heavily. and still i go search for her till she call mi and say she below her hse waitin 4 me le. den i ji tao angry. nvm. cut it short and sweet. i dun1 2 care le. i m juz hurting myself more and more she also neva ask 4 my concern i juz bring tis problem 2 myself wad 2 do. so i juz went home again. and ya tats e end of it. maybe shes really nt e one 4 me.

2006-05-05T13:47:00.000-07:00

today its over between us le ba juz came frm k-box.. went wit my god aunties 2 let out all e sadness etc.. i feel much beta thx carol and ann.. ya.. juz nw i call aiping up and told her wad i mean by the sms's and she call mi back and talk but i juz told her wad i feel and stuff..thou nt together le but i still will miss her ba. cuz shes e only stead which i hav tat i was so close to. and e most i did for ani stead.i actually honestly still love her but i dun1 2 get hurt later on cuz i gt my family problems if i get hurt by her how? i cant hold on le sia. maybe she will find a betta guy den me? so many guys out there. and juz nw in k box i sang 2 of her fav song dang ni gu dang and na nu hai dui wo shuo. made mi think of she..but i tried 2 be happy realli hen love her tat i hav 2 say those words 2 her and summore thank her 4 coming into my life etc... i realli duno wad i doin. hope i dun hav ani more regrets. i go slp 1st veri tired le gd nite diary. i wish 4 a stead who loves me so tat much as her and hav no tattoos etc i will be happy can le one tats slim looks average like aiping i m very happy and grateful. will my princess ever come 2 stitch my broken heart? i'm waiting.

2006-05-02T04:14:00.000-07:00

back again.. tis time juz came back 2 write a blog.. today is monday.. lotsa things happen.. 1st.. i went 2 my father room and i came across a statement of account from the singapura finance and it shows that my father has been borrowing money and its nt a small amount.. its 120k. and he mortgage my house with my mother name with it.i was actually veri shocks. tis has been happening for like 2 years and my father has been keeping from the whole family for that long.. we didnt know until today we confronted him and we sat down and talked it out. i ask him 2 be honest 2 us and tell us where all the money go. least did i expect that my father would gamble all away including his CPF savings as he is over 55 and touched already more then half of his savings. i was totally broken down lo i tried 2 hold my tears but they juz flow out... i was dam saddened at this. i never expect my father whom i respect so much,keeps telling me that gambling buying toto,4d smoking etc is bad when he himself sets a bad example. i realli veri hurt and broken down. even tomorrow sch is starting i still think of all tis lo. how can i do well in my studies and stuff.. who will pay for my sister sch fees as she is in the university are we going 2 be beggars? i dun wan such a future juz because my father made such a big and silly mistake i m happy he came clean with us and stop hiding. yes its time 4 him 2 face the music. but now i hav a bigger responsibility as since my father cant take charge taking care of the family i as the son hav to do so. and when we talk finish i went to bath to cool down but even when i bathing i was crying even more...i needed some1 to talk 2..someone whom i felt close 2.. so i msg aiping..and juz told her wad happen.. and she does nt seem like she used 2 be caring anymore.. and another thing that made mi break down till i cant le is when i ask her a question. a question which i always given myself false hopes that she was still mine.. cuz we cooled down for awhile and i said maybe we giv each other sometime 2 understand and stuff but around 1 mth hav pass and i thought we were back so i hold her hand and she allowed we hug,we kiss, everything seems back to normal so i stop furthering questioning her abt the question..but today when i sms her and ask her..she replied me with a sms that made me feel like all along i hav been telling myself shes mine but in actual fact its not. i was totally hurt lo. i knw she dun mean 2 me and she dun mean those but i duno hw i feel.. imagine how u feel juz being hurt by ur family den the person closest to u.. den i sms her and say its all right ask her cheer up but in my heart i m actually broken but still i dun1 her 2 be sad cuz of mi etc..i juz went out and walk walk to cool down veri stressed.

2006-01-24T17:27:00.000-08:00

feeling so tired of everything le. dun1 2 continue loving sum1 whom keep needs love i feel hen tired. everytime look at her i juz feel like she juz dun care abt things i wonder how her heart can be so cold towards me.. when i message her cant meet today she dun even reply mi or wad and no espression on her face like she dun care or bo chup lo. i feel dam wad.

2005-12-22T16:05:00.000-08:00

seems like juz yesterday days passes by me easily as i woke up frm my bed each single morning. i look around me dazed wit memories of yesterday as i look back wad happen i realise i wasn't a good stead and to tell e truth i was lookin at my dear memories box i know i should't but curosity kills the cats so i juz looked in it and e anger in my boils even more to see wad he did 2 my girl. many questions keeps rushing 2 my brain tryin 2 overload me and i cant think straight. i really wish my girl would tell mi wad happen between them cuz it seems like e letter i read she really loves her ex so much and yes i do get jealous over e past but ppl always say dun look at e past cuz it will hurt u deeper. i feel she loves her ex wholeheartly totally even give him songs and stuff take so many photos even wait 4 him 4 hours! nt that i wan i really veri sad cuz i imagine hw they were last time and cry i know i m a guy shld be so weak but i do break down and cry cuz it makes me feel better i really love my girl wit all my heart annd never wan 2 break her heart but sometimes i feel she talks 2 me so cold i feel my heart breaking and on e verge of break.. i knw i sometimes hurt her wit offensive words like break but i dun mean it. i say it out of anger hope she only understands and know how i feel about her. i love her soooo much words cant descide actions only feelings and thoughts she's e only girl whom i love so much cuz of her i 4got all abt my ex.. yes i do thik of my ex but no feeling cuz u have replaced all e hurt wit ur smiles and warmness when i m wit u i feel so warm and happy when each time we wanna part u knw i very hurt and i always put up a bold front act cool and feelingless but actually i dun1 u 2 leave i know i give attitude cuz i wan u 2 treasure me. i treasure u so much hope u do e same to me i treasure u so much even my frenz say i mad or wad come ur house just 2 bring breakfast and see u. u knw hws e feeling of missing someone so near 2 u but feelin so far away? tats me. i dun wan u 2 say i keep bring e past and bring out but i realli love u and hope u change in someways nt all but it wil make u see life more happily. eg..be contented in life wad ever u have be thankful for..and we always quarrel but u realise y we still together i dun1 we keep say myfaul or ur fault i knw i say tat often i trying 2 change i hope we both know when whose wrong will say out and when body language isn't of use.. juz speak out wad u wan 2 say i rather u speak like i ask u things hope u juz say dun node ur head cuz later i guess guess den u later say things. so hope u hav anythin in mind juz say out..as for ur make-up all i very happy u almost nt puttin le i very happy..dear even we going to 5 mths le. but i wan 2 say i realli hen zhen xi ni lo. i realli love u so much juz hope u know but guess uwill never ever read tis haa.. i like talking 2 myself.. haa..

2005-12-14T07:47:00.000-08:00

sch is so-so tis few days finally decided 2 come back blogging cuz tis blog 2 many ppl is kinda dead so yea no1 will come here so i blog back old site hee.. hmm been thinking of wad i gonna do after my ite life. feeling so meaningless in life sumtimes go sch go home like same routine everyday its so boring feel like go work exercise cuz ppl say i fat so muz go lose weight le. and work cuz i wan 2 kill time. lots of projects coming up.. etp hope my grp can do well and get high marks =)

2005-08-14T15:50:00.000-07:00

hmm today went out wit my frenz.. went 2 see fireworks as today last time le.. yupyup enjoyed it alot..den afta fireworks i went 2 arcade as usual go play my standard drums and guitar game.. haa den met jimmy den went 2 pak pool wit him den i went back and neva slp e whole nite cuz i reach home den cant slp le den now is 4am ++ nth 2 do so juz come here type lo.. haa tml test i no study sia.. surely fail le.. bwg.. haa..i dam slack sia..

2005-08-03T23:01:00.000-07:00

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
Sewn together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

2005-07-30T11:17:00.000-07:00

back.. removed all the pw and stuff le.

2005-07-28T03:22:00.000-07:00

Hmm today quite fun la.. went 2 sch early.. meet up wit sum classmates cuz went shopping 4 sumthin.. cant tell.. haa okok.. den i receive message frm my teacher saying no erp.. den i comne sch only for like 2 hours... haa lame.. den went back lo.. quite fun la in class we all watch vcd.. watching bug me not,ghost train,house of wax.. all watching and can hear screaming all.. tml is ms word ca test.. duno can do well anot.. hope so ba.. and nxt week got 3 tests.. monday is bfd test.. unit 5 tuesday is erp test unit 3 and friday erp test unit 4.. sure gonna hafta study real hard le.. bo pian.. exams all coming liao..yupyup and my class soon will have 1 more student.. juz came in was a new guy called yuan chen.. yea.. kinda nice guy..ok gtg stop here le.. now is almost dinner time le.. talk tml

2005-07-26T05:32:00.000-07:00

haa ok.. today quite ok le la.. change blog 2 here.. ok...juz quarrel wit my mum knn dam kp lo she i said le still piss mi off den i blow at her la scold all e bad words haa dun care she come threaten me all tis shit dun care her la fuck care her cb

2005-07-23T22:39:00.000-07:00

back.

2005-02-03T17:41:00.000-08:00

i dam dulan ccb.. i go work so shiok shiok then when i wan 2 knock off.. knn so many problems ccb. 1st is a fuck up customer order beef bowl then change to beef only.cb den hav 2 call manager out den so mani fuck up problems..knn duno y calvin scold mi. cb scold mi 4 wad fuck i owe u life ah knn i knw i neva call order den muz shout bang things ah. u wan 2 see who can fight we settle 1 on 1 outside la.nb i veri nice say sorry liao cb mi only work 2 weeks+ can understand anot tats y i got the word TRAINEE on my name right can u see that. i always trying my best 2 be quick and alert mi ytd and today sick and i still come work. its nt i dun1 rest it is i responsible and dun1 2 make u all kanan fuck by manager and i m not born 2 let u fuck mi around i got my own pride