Thursday, December 22, 2005
seems like juz yesterday days passes by me easily as i woke up frm my bed each single morning. i look around me dazed wit memories of yesterday as i look back wad happen i realise i wasn't a good stead and to tell e truth i was lookin at my dear memories box i know i should't but curosity kills the cats so i juz looked in it and e anger in my boils even more to see wad he did 2 my girl. many questions keeps rushing 2 my brain tryin 2 overload me and i cant think straight. i really wish my girl would tell mi wad happen between them cuz it seems like e letter i read she really loves her ex so much and yes i do get jealous over e past but ppl always say dun look at e past cuz it will hurt u deeper. i feel she loves her ex wholeheartly totally even give him songs and stuff take so many photos even wait 4 him 4 hours! nt that i wan i really veri sad cuz i imagine hw they were last time and cry i know i m a guy shld be so weak but i do break down and cry cuz it makes me feel better i really love my girl wit all my heart annd never wan 2 break her heart but sometimes i feel she talks 2 me so cold i feel my heart breaking and on e verge of break.. i knw i sometimes hurt her wit offensive words like break but i dun mean it. i say it out of anger hope she only understands and know how i feel about her. i love her soooo much words cant descide actions only feelings and thoughts she's e only girl whom i love so much cuz of her i 4got all abt my ex.. yes i do thik of my ex but no feeling cuz u have replaced all e hurt wit ur smiles and warmness when i m wit u i feel so warm and happy when each time we wanna part u knw i very hurt and i always put up a bold front act cool and feelingless but actually i dun1 u 2 leave i know i give attitude cuz i wan u 2 treasure me. i treasure u so much hope u do e same to me i treasure u so much even my frenz say i mad or wad come ur house just 2 bring breakfast and see u. u knw hws e feeling of missing someone so near 2 u but feelin so far away? tats me. i dun wan u 2 say i keep bring e past and bring out but i realli love u and hope u change in someways nt all but it wil make u see life more happily. eg..be contented in life wad ever u have be thankful for..and we always quarrel but u realise y we still together i dun1 we keep say myfaul or ur fault i knw i say tat often i trying 2 change i hope we both know when whose wrong will say out and when body language isn't of use.. juz speak out wad u wan 2 say i rather u speak like i ask u things hope u juz say dun node ur head cuz later i guess guess den u later say things. so hope u hav anythin in mind juz say out..as for ur make-up all i very happy u almost nt puttin le i very happy..dear even we going to 5 mths le. but i wan 2 say i realli hen zhen xi ni lo. i realli love u so much juz hope u know but guess uwill never ever read tis haa.. i like talking 2 myself.. haa..
4:05 PM
My heart skipped a beat;
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
sch is so-so tis few days finally decided 2 come back blogging cuz tis blog 2 many ppl is kinda dead so yea no1 will come here so i blog back old site hee.. hmm been thinking of wad i gonna do after my ite life. feeling so meaningless in life sumtimes go sch go home like same routine everyday its so boring feel like go work exercise cuz ppl say i fat so muz go lose weight le. and work cuz i wan 2 kill time. lots of projects coming up.. etp hope my grp can do well and get high marks =)
7:47 AM
My heart skipped a beat; 