Thursday, December 22, 2005
seems like juz yesterday days passes by me easily as i woke up frm my bed each single morning. i look around me dazed wit memories of yesterday as i look back wad happen i realise i wasn't a good stead and to tell e truth i was lookin at my dear memories box i know i should't but curosity kills the cats so i juz looked in it and e anger in my boils even more to see wad he did 2 my girl. many questions keeps rushing 2 my brain tryin 2 overload me and i cant think straight. i really wish my girl would tell mi wad happen between them cuz it seems like e letter i read she really loves her ex so much and yes i do get jealous over e past but ppl always say dun look at e past cuz it will hurt u deeper. i feel she loves her ex wholeheartly totally even give him songs and stuff take so many photos even wait 4 him 4 hours! nt that i wan i really veri sad cuz i imagine hw they were last time and cry i know i m a guy shld be so weak but i do break down and cry cuz it makes me feel better i really love my girl wit all my heart annd never wan 2 break her heart but sometimes i feel she talks 2 me so cold i feel my heart breaking and on e verge of break.. i knw i sometimes hurt her wit offensive words like break but i dun mean it. i say it out of anger hope she only understands and know how i feel about her. i love her soooo much words cant descide actions only feelings and thoughts she's e only girl whom i love so much cuz of her i 4got all abt my ex.. yes i do thik of my ex but no feeling cuz u have replaced all e hurt wit ur smiles and warmness when i m wit u i feel so warm and happy when each time we wanna part u knw i very hurt and i always put up a bold front act cool and feelingless but actually i dun1 u 2 leave i know i give attitude cuz i wan u 2 treasure me. i treasure u so much hope u do e same to me i treasure u so much even my frenz say i mad or wad come ur house just 2 bring breakfast and see u. u knw hws e feeling of missing someone so near 2 u but feelin so far away? tats me. i dun wan u 2 say i keep bring e past and bring out but i realli love u and hope u change in someways nt all but it wil make u see life more happily. eg..be contented in life wad ever u have be thankful for..and we always quarrel but u realise y we still together i dun1 we keep say myfaul or ur fault i knw i say tat often i trying 2 change i hope we both know when whose wrong will say out and when body language isn't of use.. juz speak out wad u wan 2 say i rather u speak like i ask u things hope u juz say dun node ur head cuz later i guess guess den u later say things. so hope u hav anythin in mind juz say out..as for ur make-up all i very happy u almost nt puttin le i very happy..dear even we going to 5 mths le. but i wan 2 say i realli hen zhen xi ni lo. i realli love u so much juz hope u know but guess uwill never ever read tis haa.. i like talking 2 myself.. haa..
4:05 PM
My heart skipped a beat; 