Monday, May 15, 2006
hello diary.. i m back le.. yup after such a long way no time 2 talk 2 u.. ya.. i 4gotten her le.. thx 2 my nu`er cindy she made mi realise no point holding on or waitin or wadeva 4 ppl. ya its me who ask 2 be seperated but i hav tried askin her out 3 times and all she buzi maybe she think i hurt her or wad but. does she think in my shoes if she was me? does she wan 2 be kept waitin and wad if she like another guy or wad? i will be being given false hope? i duno tis is wad i assume maybe i nt a good guy 2 her lo juz hurt her all.den she wan put tattoo. so its like e end i tried 2 stop her frm putting 1 but she still wan 2 put ya.. so its i cant stop her or wad lo but if i realli so happen 2 saw her be4 she put 1 i gonna pull her out of the shop lo. ya la i still care for her all cuz i promise her tat i will still care 4 her no matter wad lo and i do keep my word i last time took her ex stuff is 2 remove tat hurt frm her frm her last time ex so tat when i was wit her she will 4get abt her ex totally cuz nth 2 remind her of any hurts etc. but we're nt together but i will help her hold till she feels she wan it back i return her ba by tat time comes guess she maybe find a better guy den me ba. wad 2 do i gt financial problems father gamble wad 2 do? i no money of course no ger wan ma. i know she nt after money or wad but still if she wit me she will suffer ma cuz i hav no money etc and she likes 2 put tattoo i juz hate it.and wednesday i gg surgery le so mani problems.. in sch i do see her sad but i cant be sad cuz i m crying my heart out always trying 2 peek at her but i guess she found sum1 else better no matter wad its like over 4 us ma wad can i do? everythings my fault i nt fate 4 ani girl gd enuff. y love cant stop a girl frm doing things tat would harm their body. i always repeat is cuz i care 4 her alot lo.. i know its very fan but i juz mean well 4 her. but always get e wrong idea. i knw i oversensitive etc. but i trying 2 change so much le lo. wad is true love. hope it would come 2 me.
5:07 AM
My heart skipped a beat; 